Saturday, March 3, 2012

Where I Belong

I'm missing my daddy today.

My heart aches at all the things I wish I could tell know, like the fact that Rhys stood up today without holding on to anything before plopping down on her diaper....Or that Rhett got stuck under the table when he was looking for his ball....Or that I am reading a really challenging spiritual book right now.  

I want to ask him for advice.  He always did have the best advice.  Not judgmental, and not pushy.  A good listener with experience and solid, Godly advice.  A wise man, indeed.

My heart yearns to sit and watch old Seinfeld episodes with him.  To hear him laugh at the same old jokes.  Jimmy loved him some Seinfeld!

I wish we could have run just one more race together.  Maybe another half marathon or even a full.  And with this would come eating a meal of pasta together the night before.  And having a peanut butter Clif bar together for breakfast the morning of the race.

I miss him.

Today my daddy's headstone was delivered to the cemetery in Brenham.  I could not be there, but my mom sent me a picture.

Isn't it beautiful?

Today I was reminded that this earth is not my home.  It is not where I belong.  

"But our citizenship is in heaven.  And we eagerly await a Savior from there, the Lord Jesus Christ, who, by the power that enables him to bring everything under his control, will transform our lowly bodies so that they will be like his glorious body."  --Philippians 3:20-21

This song by Building 429 came to mind.  You can listen by clicking the "play" button in the center of the picture.

Here are the lyrics to the song:
Sometimes it feels like I'm watching 
From the outside 
Sometimes it feels like I'm breathing 
But am I alive?
I will keep searching for answers 
That aren't here to find

All I know is I'm not home yet 
This is not where I belong 
Take this world and give me Jesus 
This is not where I belong

So when the walls come falling down on me 
And when I'm lost in the current of a raging sea 
I have this blessed assurance holding me.


When the earth shakes 
I wanna be found in You 
When the lights fade 
I wanna be found in You

I am so thankful for the hope that I have in Jesus.  This is world is not my home.  I do not belong here.  And one sweet day I will be reunited with my daddy.  And this is good news.  


  1. Misty I had no idea your daddy passed away. I'm sorry for your loss. This is a wonderful blog & it touched my heart! Reminds me of what I sometimes loose sight of, heaven is our home not earth. It's just our pit stop. I love you guys dearly & miss you all!

  2. Misty- We miss your dad so much and love your mom! We try to keep track of her- but miss her coming and going. My mom died of cancer the week of Thanksgiving- So, I am missing her too. My heart goes out to your entire family, because I know it was only a year ago in Feb. that you found out about his illness.

    Those twins are so cute- You must have an awfully busy life.
    Hope we get to see you next time you come to Brenham.

    Oh, yes, our daughter that looks like you got married yesterday. She is 30- It was so wonderful- Her husband is fantastic- she had known him 6 years- and he and his family are very Christian.
    Anyway- all our love to you- You are in our thoughts and prayers this spring.
    Loyce & Dan Holt

  3. Misty, this is precious. I miss your wonderful dad too. He was one extremely special man. I loved him dearly!

  4. Misty, I love the picture of your dad holding the twins. He looks so happy in that picture. I am very glad that he got to meet his first grandbabies before he died. I know that your heart still aches for him. It will for a while, but you will get to the point eventually where most of your thoughts and remembrances of him will be happy ones. Time has a way of easing our heartaches. Until the heartache heals, though, we can lean on the Lord for strength. Love you guys!